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North Lawrence, New York, United States
I can be described as lover of life, an animal lover, and lover of education. I am constantly striving for knowledge and learning opportunities. I've been around horses my entire life. I enjoy working with horses and their human partners through natural horsemanship philosophies, natural balance bare foot hoof care, reiki, red-light therapy, essential oils, aromatherapy, crystal healing, chromotherapy, flower essences, and more. I am a Usui Shiki Ryoho Reiki Master Teacher who offers treatments for people, horses, dogs, cats, and other creatures great and small. I also teach Reiki classes for those interested in learning how to treat themselves, their loved ones, and even their animals! Natural Horse Lover Farm is located in Northern New York between the St. Lawrence River and Adirondack Mountains. Heaven on Earth. naturalhorseloverfarm.com

Thursday, September 08, 2011

Getting Back to Basics

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It has been a long time since I've posted.  I've literally had non-stop company at my house since around the first of August!  I was dealing with that and working, feeling overwhelmed, stressed, and at my breaking point. It is not that I din't enjoy some of the time but every day, people at your house...not for me, sorry but it is not. It is one reason why opening up a horse business would not work, the constant stream of people would get to me, I love my privacy. I have not had a real vacation in years and better do something soon. Horse time?  I cannot remember what that is...well except for the other day when I got to play with Lola who seems to be completely oblivious that we had a relationship and that I was the leader.

Lola and I worked it all out, it ended well but, I had to dismount almost immediately because she was very ugly towards me when I simply asked her to back up...she rang her neck, tried to bite me, and even offered to bolt and buck should I not get off on my own.  I took it as an opportunity to reconnect and get back to basics.  How rude it was of me to ask for anything when all I'd been doing is mostly just cleaning and feeding her without really spending any quality time.  We played in the playground, round pen, in the yard, driveway, and even with the trailer.  Getting back to basics for us meant reestablishing herd hierarchy, playing the games and patterns, and learning to listen to one another.  Overall, a good session but one that was fraught with a lot of emotion...a good thing as it tested both of us and our relationship which is still on good terms, luckily. I didn't try to ride again by the way, I didn't have a desire and saw no point in it.

I need to get my life back on track and my mind back in the horse game, back in the healthier living game, and so much more.  I am in a true and horrible funk...I owe you all like 6 weekly tasks!  But, I think for now, I'll have to stop the weekly task thing because I am not active enough in the horse game at the moment to even be thinking about it.  So, I'll post things as them come but not on any kind of schedule anymore, I need to take the pressure (and guilt) off for now,  I hope you understand. I need to bet back to the basics in my life, planning, eating right, playing with horses, exercising, and spending time with Rick. (Oh, and working of course, lol.)

My plan...? I am menu planning some easy, light meals and also planning for horse time and physical activity--a fresh start. I've registered for Bangin' Bodies, Zumba I, and Zumba II at the University starting the week of Sept 19th. I am starting back at the gym on Monday come hell or high water! And, starting back on Sat I'll be back at Weight Watchers meetings and Zumba afterwards. I am also pledging 30 minutes a day with the horses doing something other than cleaning or feeding.  It does not sound like much but it is a start and fairly realistic. I have to do something...I feel just horrible lately. I am physically and emotionally drained and need a new start, a complete overhaul, an attitude adjustment. Rick reminded me of how great I felt when I was exercising, playing with the horses, and eating right (I think he feels cruddy too frankly). So, I am going back at it full force because for me, complete immersion is the only thing that works, I cannot just dabble in anything, I have to be totally focused and almost obsessed. (This may mean a few extra visits to the chiropractor but I don't care, I love my adjustments and my doctor!)

So that is the story, it is not a pretty one but an honest one.  Take care everyone, keep in touch, and do come back to the blog, I plan to post more often again! Sigh.
P.S.  I am working on a plan for a vacation or at the least, a weekend excursion with Rick and no one else.  I love my family but enough is enough...I need my personal life back...sorry to offend but it is reality.  I love my private life, my home with husband and critters off in the woods, in our own little world.


PeterC said...

Never left your blog. Don't feel guilty, sometimes just start doing it is all you need!

Got my second C25K run in, BTW. So just remember that you inspired me to start that a while ago and I'm finally able to do it!

Shannon said...

Good to see you writing again! A few thoughts for you - take them as you want. First, leave your guilt about your blog at the door. No one expects anything from you. Writing should de-stress not add to it!! Write what you want when you want! We are happy to read whatever you've got time for. Second, exercise is known to relieve stress. Hhhmmmm sounds like something you really need at the moment. Great that you identified that and are taking steps to making it part of your day. Third - I am much like you and alone time is essential to my well being. No need to apologize to anyone - its just part of who you are! What I have found is when I get overwhelmed and stressed from spending too much time with people (no matter how much I love them!) sometimes just a 20 minute walk in the woods is enough to recharge. Feeding/horse care when done alone can be quiet, relaxing alone time. When big blocks of alone time aren't available, focusing on the little bits can help get you through.

You sound so blue - hopefully your back to the basics plan will bring some positive energy back to you!! Best wishes to you and yours! The most beautiful season of the year is just starting to make an appearance - enjoy!!


Marion Princic said...

oh i totally understand you, i´m the same. visitors are nice for a short time only.

Michelle AKA arabhorselover1 said...

Thanks everyone, I truly appreciate having you all here with me! :)

Lisa said...

Maybe it's something in the collective air - been going through the same thing myself.

Sometimes you have to say "no" to things that really are not as important as they appear in order to say "yes" to things that are way more necessary than they seem. Those who truly love and cherish us will always understand, even if it's a little painful at first.

CurtsBooks said...

What everyone else said.
Also, are you an introvert? Us introverts are usually stressed by having other people around too much, especially when in our home. We seriously need our away time.

Michelle AKA arabhorselover1 said...

Well, I am happy to report that I am back on track in my life and feeling better than ever. I know, it has just ben a couple of days but what a difference. Eting right and exercising directly affects everything else for me and I am on top of the world at the moment. I hope to keep up this trend as I feel like my self again!

P.S. I am a left-brained extrovert. :)